If someone asked me to describe myself one of the words I'd use is "positive". I try to look on the bright side. I believe in the power of positive thinking. I believe in Karma. I believe that good ultimately triumphs over evil. Etc., etc., etc. That's not to say that things don't bug me. Oh, things bug me. They can bug me a lot. And I can be really bitter. Oh lawdy, can I carry a grudge! Just ask The Man. But still...I try to be positive most of the time. OK, some of the time. Every now and then? You're not going for this?
I have to admit, since giving birth to Ladybug I haven't been my old chipper self. Well, I've been the OLD part, just not the chipper part. The fact is that I'm tired. I try not to beat myself up about it too much. I mean c'mon! I'm...well, I'm old! Like, in my 40s old. I know, I know, 40s the new 30, but I've given birth TWICE since I turned 40. I'm entitled to be a little tired. Especially since I'm still trying to live my life like I'm in my 30s.
Lately I've begun to think that I'm using this "old mom" thing as a crutch. It seems I've gotten out of the habit of recognizing the amazing things that happen right in front of me every day. Well, I'm doing something about it. Ho-hum...sounds a tad cliché, you say? Well, one of the best parts about being in my 40s is that I don't really care what people think about me anymore. (Now if that's not reason for celebration, what is?!) So stop on by my brand-spankin' new blog. Acknowledge a little joy with me.
4 comments:
Oh I am in my forties and I have 3 girls and I can not imagine have a baby now! You are awesome.
Happy MonDay! :)
I totally agree with you on the karma thing! And boy can I hold a grudge too! :) Why not, as long as it doesn't cause us to be negative. BTW, You are not old, wait 'til you turn 50 and your babies go off to college then you will feel old :( (ok, this is a bit of self pity here, sorry )
Have a good one, regards T. :)
'Together', thanks for the affirmation. I am awesome...when I don't totally suck! ;D
And T, when I'm 50, my babies will still be babies (in grade school). By the time they leave the nest, I'll probably be back in diapers!!! Hopefully the senility will have set in by then and I'll just find everything hilarious;D
Teddy...I am 60...and you think you are old! And you are right...everything that happens now is hilarious...at least the things I remember happening!
Enjoyed the post.
Dan
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